[Malaaikah]

Right I want you guys to answer the above question as quite a lot of people seem to think I am possessed slightly. SO heres a few problems which I have and you can give me your answer in the comment section below:

- I have to have like 12 hours sleep everyday
- I used to get headaches everyday
- Shaking/trembling all the time especially when listening to or reciting Quran or when doing ziayarah or something religious. Its so bad people always notice it.
- Depression, sometimes I get sad for no reason whatsoever and really moody and I get upset over tiny issues
- Bad memory like really bad I forgot what I did yesterday I will have to work out what I did sometimes and it will take me ages to figure it out which leads to my next point. Sometimes Il forget what Im doing for e.g. If im making tea I’ll be placing everything in the wrong place like sugar in the fridge milk in the tea bag before the water, I find myself doing things like this a lot but I stop myself beforehand.Sometimes Il forget what I’ve told people so Il repeat myself sometimes or just think omg I told so an so this and just think why on earth did I do such a thing.
- Loss of time
- Bad dreams i.e. of jinns
- Bad thoughts just prop into my head and I cant and never could concentrate properly on religious activities. Lets just say Ive never had sakoon when Im doing dhikr or something which usually leads to shaking.
- I talk to myself not out loud but in my head and have convos with myself.
- Sometimes Ill wake up and not talk to anyone all day and feel very lazy I will spend hours doing nothing. I think its when I recite Quran a lot :S but Im not too sure as today was one of those days. When I do something I will be very slow and shaky because Im being forced to do it.
- I think too much abt anything and everything.
- Periods are always different for eg sometimes I will have em a few days earlier sometimes a week earlier etc. They may be on time for a few weeks but they will never ever always be on time.
- I break things accidently
- Once I was going pass these gypsies who do fortune tellers or whatever an everyone was going past her and when she saw me she shouted out “Ive got a reading for you” lol.
- People always think Im scared when Im not its cos I look scared :/ for some reason but im not really scared why would I be?
- I was watching the video brother Tahir put up yesterday about MPD and I got really scared after like 15 mins I got all funny and scared inside I couldn’t take anymore so i swtiched it off.
- Sleep Paralysis - Another thing I noticed I always start off sleeping on my right side but I cant sleep untill Im on my back:S . So sometimes Il get paralysed and feel like something is attacking me. I recite Ayatul Kursi in my heart.

Another thing is before bed I recite the 3 Quls 3 x and blow it over my hands and place them all over my body as per the Sunnah. I recited Ayatul Kursi, Surah Al Fatiha, Durood Shareef. So why Do i Still get these jinns coming to me?

I dont really know what to believer anymore. SO please tell me what you think

[Ghulaam-e-Naqshband]

Sister from what you have described, it is not related to jinn but is simply a medical problem. Have you discussed all this with your GP as I think you should request the GP to refer you to a psychiatrist as your problem is psychological. Don't worry, and don't let anyone tell you that the problem is jinn related. Just do zikr as much as possible and also have you done bayah with a "real" shaykh?

[Know-the-Ledge]

I assure you the following will work:

1) go gym
2) swear in punjabi using Joker voice
3) spend a night in Travel Lodge


Apart from that, nothing wrong, it's just female ticks, you know over thinking that it's a conspiracy against you, circles, triangles, islaminati etc etc

[arzooemadinah]

Change your daily routine , book a holiday or go for umrah but try to change daily routine , keep yourself busy , walk 2/3 miles a day.

[Malaaikah]

I went to my GP and she just gave me some iron tablets and told me im anemic theres nothing much to it really and I took the tablets and nothings changed. I fear going to the doctors in case they just shove me into a psychiatric unit and leave me there to really go mental or something

Well as I said people always say to me that Im you know "possessed" but that its gotten weak over the years due to my constant recitation of the Quran and Ayatul Kursi etc. Yes I am bayah with a real Shaykh, well hes the best Shaykh around as a matter of fact but I dont want to go into that debate right now lol. I've never really told anyone all my problems but bits and bobs and Shaykh gave me a wird to recite and its been over a year since Ive been reciting it and Im still having these problems.

Someone else thinks im possessed because he suffered the same problems gave me this ruqya to do and he said it will go away but I dont want to do it because of the way he was describing it its kinda scaryy.

Hmm I go for a walk usually for abt an hour or so everyday but I havent been goin in Ramadhaan due to tiredness.

[Husayni]

Malaaikah, on 29 July 2012 - 04:26 PM, said:

I went to my GP and she just gave me some iron tablets and told me im anemic theres nothing much to it really and I took the tablets and nothings changed. I fear going to the doctors in case they just shove me into a psychiatric unit and leave me there to really go mental or something

Well as I said people always say to me that Im you know "possessed" but that its gotten weak over the years due to my constant recitation of the Quran and Ayatul Kursi etc. Yes I am bayah with a real Shaykh, well hes the best Shaykh around as a matter of fact but I dont want to go into that debate right now lol. I've never really told anyone all my problems but bits and bobs and Shaykh gave me a wird to recite and its been over a year since Ive been reciting it and Im still having these problems.

Someone else thinks im possessed because he suffered the same problems gave me this ruqya to do and he said it will go away but I dont want to do it because of the way he was describing it its kinda scaryy.

Hmm I go for a walk usually for abt an hour or so everyday but I havent been goin in Ramadhaan due to tiredness.

I have never met anyone in my life thats possessed and admits it..I think you are the first

[samzus]

Are you possessed?
Yes, if YOU think so.
No, if YOU don't think so.

What I think?
I think you are not possesed by any jinn..but your fears.
Isn't it normal to bleed when you are pricked by a needle? Given all the circumstances and tribulations you've been through, it is quite understandable for you to feel a certain way. Plus anaemia tells a lot of the story. Lack of concentration, feeling of sadness for no apparent reason, irregular periods, looking pale (maybe that's why people think you look scared )...
These conditions are very much related to the iron deficiency in your body. Taking tablets didn't help? Have you been taking Vitamin C in your diet? Vitamin C helps absorption of iron in your body. You see you dont just take medicine and expect some magic. You need to introduce a healthy lifestyle and a positive mindset to make things work. Talk to your GP about the Non-effectiveness of the iron tablets. S/he will guide you better insha'Allah.

About the negative thoughts and jinn, if I remember correctly..from your previous posts it appeared that the ones around you talk about magic and jinn quite often. And just how you mentioned that some people think that you are possesed. It isnt strange at all that you dream of jinns. The talk is all around you for you think about it consciously or unconsciously.
You mentioned reciting 4 Quls and other Ayah..that's great masha'Allah. Try to make your belief in Kalamullah stronger. Seek refuge in Allah. You will definitely find it.

Don't wanna visit a psychiatrist? Insha'Allah you won't need one. Have strong and firm faith in Allah. You are never alone or helpless. He is always there. Just remove the veils
Struggling to get there? Get in contact with your amazing Shaykh. I'm sure he replies to the emails.
May Allah bless you with inner peace and tranquility. Aameen!

Lastly, remember nothing can bother or invade you unless you let it. Wish you strength!

[Malaaikah]

AM I POSSESSED?

Of course Im not possessed what planet are u guys living on??

That was just a tester to see what u really think of me. Im glad no one said that I am possessed apart from brother Husayni but hes always sharing some wisdom in his posts so maybe just maybe theres some sort of pearls of wisdom emenating from his wise post? I just have to think hard enough I may get there in the end lol. Nah.

I havent been receiving any replies to ma emails lately from ma tariqa people so thats why I posted this on here. I know its verrrry verrry sad cos I feel verrrry verrrry lonely like theres no one who can help me cos ma Shaykh doesnt have time to reply to my emails either cos he has soo many mureeds emailing him anyway. However, hes always in an out ma dreams like a yoyo so maybe hes replyin to me when im unconcious an I just dont know it. Oh dont worry I didnt ask him this question as to whetehr im possessed or not cos that wwould just be utter stupidity asking for a non reply. Listen to me babbling on well it is nearly 5 am and Im usually abit psycho at night as u can tell. I need some pills to stop this "self" from u know talkin she likes taking over when ma other self the real one is sleepy and tired

[4dvti]

I think you're possessed. Very verry possessed