[yukiyukio]

Assalamvalaikum brothers and sisters ,

I need help. I fighting severe OCD , Scrupulosity. It is killing me a little each day. No matter how much i repent and do tawbah , i cannot get thoughts out of my head. The images and thoughts about what i did in the past during a bried period of a few days do not leave my mind. I immediately made tawbah and it has been 5 months since i repented from that sin and i never did it again. I still can not make the guilt go away.

Situation is so bad that whenever i read a verse from the Quran which condemns the unbelievers and sinners I feel like it is pointed towards me.Whenever I read articles about molesters or rapists or people who will throw acid on others etc etc , I fear I am also like one of those people.

I have begun to doubt my intentions and motives with regard to everything that I do. Even prayer once I pray , I feel I was not sincere and did it for different reasons. It has left me in total despair. I feel like im the devil sometimes. I feel I am totally evil. I did tawbah. I did tawbah and I never committed the sin again and never went close to it also again. Then why is this happening to me. I feel dead in my head. I feel hopeless. I feel away from ALLAH and ALLAH hates me.

[arzooemadinah]

Brother same posts you sending again and again , they will not give you any help . you need to see mental health peoples and when you see them once they will take care and help you . You will be fine after seeing them , this may take months and may years to come normal.

The best thing is you knew you got Ocd and you can talk to them easily because most Ocd patients never acknowledge that they got Ocd.

Change your routines , pray namaz , read quraan whatever comes in your mind carry on and go for a walk every day and see your Drs and they will refer you to Ocd speciallists but how often they will call you to see go and see them , they even come to see patients at there homes .

And if they will admit you in hospital go , they are the people you need to listen now if you want to come out from this illness.

And if you think by asking here for dua you will get the cure no that is not possible Allah will help you and your duas as well but you need medical help as well.

ASk if nay brother or sister can meet you if they live in the area you are may be they can give you some help.

[CashewNut]

yukiyukio, on 27 July 2012 - 03:57 PM, said:

Assalamvalaikum brothers and sisters ,

I need help. I fighting severe OCD , Scrupulosity. It is killing me a little each day. No matter how much i repent and do tawbah , i cannot get thoughts out of my head. The images and thoughts about what i did in the past during a bried period of a few days do not leave my mind. I immediately made tawbah and it has been 5 months since i repented from that sin and i never did it again. I still can not make the guilt go away.

Situation is so bad that whenever i read a verse from the Quran which condemns the unbelievers and sinners I feel like it is pointed towards me.Whenever I read articles about molesters or rapists or people who will throw acid on others etc etc , I fear I am also like one of those people.

I have begun to doubt my intentions and motives with regard to everything that I do. Even prayer once I pray , I feel I was not sincere and did it for different reasons. It has left me in total despair. I feel like im the devil sometimes. I feel I am totally evil. I did tawbah. I did tawbah and I never committed the sin again and never went close to it also again. Then why is this happening to me. I feel dead in my head. I feel hopeless. I feel away from ALLAH and ALLAH hates me.

There is only one remedy for your OCD. I have had similar OCD problems , then I went to a great WalliAllah , he adviced me the following to read everyday 100 times and blow on water and then drink it. SubhanAllah, what the doctors couldnt do, the wazifa did for me , im feeling much much better now:

The wazifa :

WALA HAULA WALA QOATA ILLA BILLA HILL ALIYIL AZWIM X 100

[butterfly1213]

I have suffered from some mental health issues myself in the past and here is my advice. First of all you have to be quite frank about what you are suffering from and what things come to your mind when are down and depressed. Second, you suffer from low self-esteem . I have been there and i know how it feels. what do you think of yourself? you said you are the devil. You apparently hate yourself. This may lead to serious issues such as suicidal thoughts and harming oneself if not treated at the right time. People who have suicidal thoughts are not bad. They are just not OK.

You can go straight to a therapist or try some counseling first. You need to speak to someone about your issues and understand your feelings. Something is trapped inside of you and you need to work with your feelings. You felt down at a point . You felt rejected. You felt depressed. You felt unwanted. You felt unworthy....etc a mix of negative feelings can snowball and destroy some beautiful things in ur life. I have been there and i am talking from experience. I am not judging you because i know quite well how you feel. You have to deal with these negative feelings and replace them with positive ones. It is not an easy task and needs some time.

Admit you are not OK. If meeting a therapist is hard at the moment you can work on it on your own. You need a close friend to help you get through this . You cant go through this alone. If you need someone to talk to , i am here for you . Please don't hesitate to contact me .

Twaba doesnt help you because deep down you hate yourself . You think you are a bad person. What you need is to change this negative self-image. Now you are doing good things , you are a good person. And you have to know that YOU and your actions are completely two different things. If you did something bad this doesn't mean you are bad. If you did something stupid, this doesn't mean you are stupid. Allah will forgive you . Allah is the most merciful. You need to FORGIVE yourself. It is not bad if went astray . It is OK to make a mistake. Boy you are young ! we learn from our mistakes. You are in caught in the details. it is not as bad as you are making it to be. it is not as bad as you think .

Allah will forgive you. Remember the people who became Muslim when islam was first introduced. They killed people . They killed muslims ppl and then they became muslims themselves. The prophet told them that they are going to jannah ! You just have to be logical in your self talk. Again if you need a supportive ear, i am here for you .