JazakAllah Kheyr sis FTR...
I realised I was sinking deeper and deeper in this hole and I thought there was no one to rescue me. I had been waiting for Shaykh a few years and still no call. Suddenly I received an email asking if I still wished to give bayah SubhanAllah it couldnt be at a better time. I realise now why Allah made me wait so long. Also, everyone used to tell me be patient in your trials etc and you will get rewardded for it straight away. Had I know this was to happen MashAllah I would never have cried so much I would have laughed all the way through. It happened straight after the incident I told you about. I find it amazing MashAllah how my life has changed for the better. Yes there are still a few signs of depression but the feelings inside are not as deep as they were before and inshAllah with the help of my guide they will be removed. I will stop here, however I do have a lot more to say.
Anyway yes, my Shaykh is a great Wali of Allah, a great Sayyid Shaykh, he is doing Dua for me so inshAllah things will improve a lot more now. Im afraid I dont really divulge this secret of who my Shaykh is but if you really want to knw message me
. An Yes its wayfari I mean Malaaikah
JazakumAllah Kheyr to all the users of Yanabi.com for all your Duas and wise words of counsel at my hour of need.